Saturday, May 19, 2007
19/5/2007
I don't know why they just can't know more about me. They just think that helping out in their work will be the best thing that i can do.
They don't know that i have my own things to do. I have tutorial to do and research to do.
But no one understand that i have all these things to do. Just because i came back home a few times late and they associate me as i am mixing with bad company outside.
I don't know why they just can't trust me, i am already 18 and why can't they just have some faith in me.
If i really want to become a bad child, i can already become a very bad gangster in one of the big gang.
I think i am a person who know what is good or bad for me, and know my limit.
I really don't know how to prove to them that i am doing my work.
Although i am home late yesterday, and i wake up late today around 11am.
Once i wake up, i am already doing my tutorial and trying to complete my assignment from school.
At night i told them that i am going out for some study for my communication skill's research, but they just don't believe that i am doing my work.
They already associate me as going out with my friends and not doing my research.
I am a polytechnic student already, and i am being very obedient.
I have never been to any clubbing places and hang out late night for every weekends.
I just want to go out at night to do read up my research, and not going out to play.
Am i just that bad as they think of me, and when can they start trusting me.
I am very stress out with my polytechnic work, and not able to understand quite a lot of things.
But i don't have anyone to turn to, not i still have to face the stress my parents is giving to me.
How am i going to get through this stage, i find myself very pathetic.
I am a nobody in the world, and can't really help it.
When i study in school, and not studying at home they will accuse me of not studying.
Just because they don't see me studying, and assume that i am not studying.
When i am studying both in school and home, they will assume that i am not studying in school as they don't see me studying in school.
What kind of world is this, when whatever one person do is always wrong.
I have a feeling that i have to go out everyday to save myself from these kind of accuse.
Can't take it, just that they don't blame me next time of going out everyday.
I can be a very obedient boy, and i also can be the worse child even on earth.
Just don't force me to do such a thing, as i am not willing to do such a thing.
posted at 9:20 PM
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